Utterly Shattered

Today my confidence is utterly shattered.. Last week I took two tests on Wednesday, both of which I thought I did exceptionally well on. I got them both back today. I got a low scoring D on my government exam and I completely bombed my math exam. I am so just completely done with confidence! It seems like every time I feel even remotely confident in anything I try to do well on I fail miserably.. no matter what the hell it may be. Nothing.. be it a math class, dressing well, losing weight.. NOTHING!!! I feel like such a failure it's not even funny. Everything seems to go the exact opposite of the way I want it to go or it just doesn't happen at all. I can't even find a freaking job! It seems like all I can manage to do right is sit in bed reading novels all day to the point where my ass goes numb. There's no one to be with except family, and even then.. little brother is always off doing something with some friends and my father figure is always off at work and I only see him four hours out of the day.. if that. Since high school ended for me there's been close to no friends in or around my life whatsoever and sure, I have a boyfriend, but the only time I see him is in class twice a week and maybe fifteen minutes after our classes get out. Not to mention he lives two hours away in Lakeport and that's close to a nonexistent place as it is. No friends, not much in the way of family time unless it's in the kitchen and I'm failing as a student. How the hell can I fix this..   :'(