Phail October

Yes I realize that I spelled "Fail" wrong, don't tell me.  I'm already in a bad mood and I don't need it to worsen.  So I really don't like the happenings of 2011's October.. it was an emotional roller coaster and Halloween straight up sucked.  It isn't fun to have a bad cold on Halloween.. and it being on a Monday night in the first place is just uncool to begin with.  So I wont have any photos up of my costume because it didn't fit in the first place.  (My nylons ripped, the costume itself didn't work at all, I started that freaking monthly thing that women have to deal with until they're in their mid 50's, my nail polish didn't like me and kept getting messed up, I forgot some things at home... you name it, it sucked).  Which is also uncool.. wouldn't you agree? Life just basically sucks right now.  I've failed the majority of my geology lab crap (who the frick would be able to memorize and identify 40 different minerals and rocks after seeing each of them only one time?! So there goes my first two exams out the window...).  I've gotten sick and missed almost half a week of school because of it (screw you allergies or whatever the heck is messing with my sinuses).  Back to a failed Halloween.. it was most definitely the most depressing and disappointing Halloween I have ever lived through.  Nothing went right or the way it should have.. except for my pumpkin carving.  I'm proud of it. (I'll post it at the bottom of this thingy.. just FYI: there's a bat to the left, and a crescent moon to the right even though you can't really see it). Today is not the best day either.  Just the little things have completely chipped away at my sanity such as getting a bunch of paper cuts within a second and then having them all swell up like a mosquito bite would, cramps (enough said), my digestive track seems to hate me and is also not feeling so hot, I've had a lack-there-of lovey-dovey attention or time with my boyfriend, being stressed out over school, barely having time at home because I'm always at school, the lack of sleep, the things I bake don't turn out, my new athletic shoes: they creak every time I take a step, I need to lose a good 50-60 pounds in order to be happy with my body and it's going to be extremely hard to do that by the new year.. I don't even think it's possible unless I starve myself and work out a couple times a day, Halloween sucking so bad and all the disappointing things that happened that night, I don't have much motivation in life anymore, I haven't seemed to be happy at all these last couple months, I keep thinking about what I want to do and where I'll end up:  I have no freaking clue about what the heck I want to do or where I want to go and so that's just depressing me... Who am I? ... The list goes on and on...