Skulls

.. That is all we drew this morning in my figure drawing class.. skulls skulls skulls SKULLS! Anywho, so now that I have about an hour to kill, (ew, just realized that I have to buy my bus pass.. fack.) wait. Nevermind, I have to go soon. I have a book, so I'd say it's all good. Nora Roberts, you've saved my life once again. So yeah.. need to go get that March bus pass soon before it sells out.. I suppose I'll do that now. Just to make sure it doesn't sell out.

PEACE

Mmm-Mmm Good, Cabbage Rolls and Coffee!

I am currently in the SRJC cafeteria watching the rain fall outside, listening to the quite obnoxious murmmur of voices all around me, and sitting next to the person that I am in love with <3 <3 <3 as he is writing out his little cheat sheet for his math test that's later today.  God he's gorgeous. I am so lucky it's crazy. If anything else, I hope he is happy to his fullest potential.. Even if it wont be with me in the future. He's too amazing to be true. He deserves the best in the world. I just hope that can be me.. Lolz.. I can't believe I'm dating a math major. A totally sexy, hunk of a math major. He's just TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!!! I'm texting a friend across the room about it as we speak.. or rather, as I type.  Pretty funny actually.  Well, I suppose it's time to leave once more. Time to put this (his) laptop in his car and then mosey our way over to our English class at three o'clock.  Oh joy.  Not looking forward to it at all.. =/ but I really have nothing to complain about because of the fact that all I am going to be doing for 2 hours except half-assed listening to people's thesis' power points and pretending to care. Kidding.. Though, I wont have anything else to do and there's probably gonna be some sort of stupid freaking test to see if people showed up for class or not.. I really don't like that class..... -_-

(oh, just thought I'd mention... the title is the name of a polka spoof that John Candy was in)

Woahhh...

It really has been some time since my last post. So, here are a few updates.. the weekend before last, I went to a Yoshi's jazz club concert and saw a famous latin percussionist, his daughter, son and there was a band that backed them all up.  It straight up rocked the house. (At one point there was this albino-looking kid who came up on stage and played like no other. Can you say crazy mucho?) And then we went out to Brenan's, ate fabulous food (as per usual), hung out a bit and then went home. Last weekend (for me it was the 17th, 18th, 19th, 20th, and 21st (five day weekend for the win!)) I slept a crap load, then took my driver's licence test (which I passed!), slept more, hung out with my boyfriend and went dancing Sunday night, then drove to his house Monday afternoon, did some homework and had a wild time, passed out, got three hours of sleep, got up and went to school on Tuesday morning.. I then went to all of my classes, and then passed the hell out on the bus home. Luckily I woke up before my bus stop.  I'm assuming the rest is kind of obvious.. dinner and bed and whatnot. Anywho, random thought of the day: My hair is so gloriously soft, I love it. Yay pink! Just kidding, I like purple better... and now back to normality.  So it is currently February 24th, 2011 and I'm seriously about to fall asleep here. I am so incredibly tired it isn't even funny.. Ah.. he's here. Time to go walk around in the cold holding his amazing hand =] Everything is better when my man is around.

Peace, L0V3 and all that jazz <3

The Waiting Game

So he and I had a serious, intense and emotional conversation on monday after I posted the last blog entry on here.. I was sobbing my heart out by the end of it.  But long story short, I get a second chance, which is probably my last chance. I am very fortunate. But I am sick of dwelling on those thoughts.. Can you guess where I am? .. (cue music..) THE SRJC LIBRARY!  :D  Jk.. it's not that great.

FML

Here's the scoop.. He is mad at me. And I'm pissed at myself too.. I lied to him, and it's made everything horrible. I just didn't want him to hate me. He was already in tears and I didn't want to make things worse, but I guess in the long run it made everything bad.. I mean, it was just a little white lie to make it so he didn't feel like I'd just gone along to do something illegal. I didn't go just to party. I went cause I like those people's company.. I feel like I could just die right now.. He's even threatening some of his friendships just because of me.. Its all my fault.. All I do is hurt others.. I should just disappear.. even if that means dropping out of school and moving away. I wish there was something I could do to make things better.. But I know he wont believe me. I already said that I was sorry, I have been so upset that it feels like I should hurl yet I don't because I'd rather be in pain myself for what I have done rather than fix it and feel better physically, I cried myself to sleep last night, I promised myself that I'd stop doing it for the rest of my life.. I don't know what else there is that I can do.. I don't know what else I should do.. I feel so lost and broken.. I completely abused his trust and now he probably wont ever trust me again. FML.

The Second

Oh man, it's February 2nd, 2011.. although it's kind of obvious if you look just above here.. it'll tell you.. so yeah, I just got out of my choir class. My art class this morning felt like it took FOREVER. so this morning, I wake my cousin up so he can drive me to the bus stop and I am late by maybe 10 seconds. The bus was right in front of me. So I had to sprint out of the car and barely made it.. it was scary. I thought that I would for sure miss it. =/ talk about a minor adrenaline rush.. Hmm.. I feel like writing in this color.. looks pretty rad yes? [How many people say "rad" anymore? C'mon people.. it's an awesome word. We should use it way more than "epic" or "chill" which are both way overused now.

Lets talk about this weekend.. in a slightly different color. Alright. So I am heading up to my friend's house this  weekend to spend time with him and his family. I am so stoked on being able to go. (acne, you are a pain in the butt.. go suck my nonexistant left nut.. hey I'm a poet and I didn't even know it :D) There isn't really anything planned except some English homework that we need to get out of the way, and also just to hang and such =] I'm excited.

I think it's time to rock the semi-dark purple. And also go up to the 4th floor of this library and kill some time in that amazing reading room with an awesome book =].. anywho.. I'll write later then.

Peace, love and all that jazzzzz

Quite a Chilly Day

Man I could just fall asleep right now if I were given a blanket and a pillow. I felt fine this morning at six when my alarm went off.  Completely awake. But then I hit this wall of "oh my god I am exhausted." I was half asleep for a good third of the bus ride over.  Sucks right? I think so.. then there was the whole head hurting thing and that sucked too.. feels like I have a somewhat pinched nerve at the base of my neck.. but it could be due to the fact that I barely drink anything.. (need to change that, I know).. My eyes still want to close. In fact, they're closed right now and I am slightly unwilling to open them due to the fact that it feels amazing. Fack mah life! I actually need to be awake for today. These are my important classes.. =/ (today I have Jazz Appreciation, philosophy and english.. which I happened to spell wrong cause lately my fingers haven't been really working all that well when it comes to typing. Goddamn you itch on the back of my leg that I can't reach cause I am sitting down and don't want to look like I am scratching my rear end.. screw you and your facking canoes! (inside joke with my father.. ask if you'd like to get in on it). Oh what to talk about.. I think I have ranted and raved about random crap enough.. I'm debating on whether or not I want to (or should) post up my upset rant about the dude I like a lot... ya know, the one that I wrote last Thursday. It might be a bit of a challenge though, reading it backwards and typing it forwards. Nahh.. it wouldn't be that difficult. It would just be kinda painful to read. Sorta. Wow.. a guy just walked by me and I had to do a little bit of a double take cause it looked like his dick was flopping around outside his pants, but it was just the end of his belt hanging down and doing the flopping. Thank goodness. Oh hey, that flamboyantly gay dude from choir is sitting two chairs down from me. He is very... let's say.. expressive when he sings. He always tends to look like he is choking (is that spelled right) or gagging on something with a half grin plastered to his face.  Kinda awkwardd.. but it's whatever really. I have about an hour and a half until my jazz app. class starts up. Yay for killing time in the library.. again... Mmm.. my hair smells good. Man I am so bored. And kinda munchy. Oh, my friend just got here. And even better, he got a spot in the parking garage =] win rawr, if I do say so myself. Fuh-reaking A, the keyboard here in this cubicle straight up sucks! The keys keep not wanting to cooperate. Annoying. Anywho, it's time I roll down my sleeves once more and face the chill of outside once more! Totally not excited for that.

Peace, love and all that jazzz ( and more love <3 ^_^)